Monday, December 28, 2009

Wow times fly when your having fun

so you see him in the halls and get butterflies right? well im telling you he probably has no clue he has this effect on you. the only way i can think of you getting what you want is telling him. telling him everything. the way he makes you feel. i know its scary but lifes scary and in the end it will be worth it. because A) you either find out what a douche he really is or B) you will find that your friendship wont be hurt because he cares enough about you to not make it awkward or C) youll find out he feels the same. i know all of these choices sounds terrifying but believe me its better then sitting there weeks months and maybe even years wondering "what if" because "what if" is never worth it. so take control over your own life girls (guys too) because why let destiny define everything in your life somethings you should own and be glad you did.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Lesson number 8.


i know i cant take my own advice...but hear me out.
you are good enough for whoever you want.
its just how much you want them...the more you want it the more you should reach for it.
its worth it no matter how it turns out...
either youll learn a lesson or fall forever.
Dont be passive when it comes to your own life.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Lesson number 7.


So things may not always go as you want them. But its important to know that anything can be overcome. Maybe if the world were more honest with each other we would learn to trust our feelings more. Maybe if we shared our thoughts and without fear opened our hearts and minds to others the truth would seem a lot less intimidating. Its time to stop the fear of truth and speak your mind, its a beautiful thing and to muffle anything it creates is not only a travesty on you but the world itself for never hearing your insight.

Believe what you feel and never feel sorry for feeling it because there will be someone who is better because it, who knows that person might actually be you...

the truth may hurt...but it also heals.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Lesson number 6.


we just have to face it
guys are stupid, girls are stupid
combined, no good can happen

Thursday, December 10, 2009

I know its tough...



so this morning i came to the conclusion of what was upsetting me for the longest time and it all came back to this one quote:

"sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve."


so im sick of crying every week over your ass
im sick of being the one that always has to change
and in all im just sick of the way you make me feel
so as of right now im done with your ass and it may hurt me
at first to walk away...in the end its the best because i wont be like this
anymore
im sick of this person ive become. and im this person because of you.
so im walking away go find someone elses emotions to mess with
go find someone else to make cry
in all go find someone else to say those lies to.....


Sunday, December 6, 2009

This is for the girls.....

this is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. The one that hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. when he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. this is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. this is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going way too fast, he needs time." heres to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. the ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. this is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "i told you so." the ones that could just tell that they made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts &Z their dreams again. we knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. we just wanted the one that we loved like that.

Heres for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. heres for the time that he broke your heart again. this is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Heres for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. this is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more that to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes its better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together & get hurt. remember the times you cried &how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. when the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made & tries calling, turn your phone off. when he tries coming to your house, dont answer the door. think of the broken promises, and the lies, the manipulation & the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night & how it fell to your stomach when you say it wasnt him, and realized that once again, he hadnt called when he said he was going to. one day you'll find a guy whos worth the tears but he wont make you cry. you may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always run back to, but you will. its going to hurt like crap, & its going to need time to heal, but the point is it will heal. this is for those girls who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again. heres to all the girls who used to be his number one. the ones who waited all night for him to call. only to check the caller id the next morning & be disappointed. the ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say "i only wanted to be your friend," one day, and the next listened to him say how much he loves & misses you.we deserve something so this is our tribute. heres to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. we listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for a while. we went through the great stage with no fights all over again. we started this out thinking it would just be friends, & ended up falling in love with him again.we wanted nothing more in the world then to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. and when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. this is for all of us. heres to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.heres for the tears cried and dried all over again. we wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldnt possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. we trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. we learned to settle for someone who didnt treat us the way we should be treated. heres for the ones who did their hair and make-up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say he couldnt see us today. the ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. we just couldnt believe that he could possibly do this to us again. this is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldnt bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder "what if"
this is for you

Saturday, December 5, 2009

looking at this lately...


the most recent posts have been well kind of depressing. so for now we should be done with it.

so for now when anyone of the opposite sex tries to hurt you this is my advice:
say Goodfuckingluck trying to find someone who cares like i do. who understands like i do. who is forgiving like i am.who will get your every quirk and positively adore it like i do. and when you realize that that's not out there, goodfuckingluck finding me where you left me."

because no one should feel like their at the bottom of a list or the last thing that crosses the other persons mind. you should be a priority each and everyone of you. please remember that.

and smile you never know who could fall in love with it at any given moment.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Lesson number 5.


Guys i understand you have to put up with this to but today is about the girls.

Ladies. enough is enough. It breaks my heart how such wonderful girls put up with such crap. When it comes to a fight there is rarely a right or wrong side. The best thing to do is not compromise your feelings otherwise you will grow contempt. So when a guy is trying to make you feel like you are at fault...FUCK EM. Respect yourself and your feelings enough to know that if you are feeling it YOU DESERVE TO FEEL IT. What you don't deserve is some lameass dickwad making YOU feel like shit. You are better then the fucker.

It would be nice to live in a world where every guy is a good guy but the truth is we dont. so when you find the one that, instead of tears of sadness, brings tears of joy...instead of a frown, brings a smile, and instead of a feeling of disappointment and lack of self worth, fills you with the feeling of pure love, a feeling that he will never do you harm, hold onto him and never let him go. He could be the one....


No girl should ever forget that she doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her.
-Marilyn Monroe

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Lesson number 4


So this morning on skype murphy sunshine and I were talking to one of our amazing guy friends, that finally found out he is amazing. And we are sick of nice guys finishing last. i mean look at no nice guy wins until the end..the end which leads to marriage and all of it. I hate seeing the ones that deserve to win lose. its not fair. so here are to the nice guys in our lives you are acknowledge and we will always be here for you and just remember no matter what it seems like now you will win in the end it just takes us girls longer to get there but be patient because you ll find the one meant for you.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Lesson number 3.


Guys.

They are only good for one thing, and that one thing, they are not that good at.

Keep your girl friends close and your guy friends...well... around for when you need a testosterone injection.

sex and the city quote:
...maybe we could be each others soul mates and then we can let men be these great nice guys that we can have fun with.(Charlotte)